My life is a constant struggle with karma, and it doesn’t help that I am a strong believer in karma. I do something bad, something bad happens to me, and so on. This continuous cycle is driving me crazy! I am constantly over thinking everything, and in return, possibly destroying my relationship! I have to start small, like with trusting him. But it’s so hard to do, because he constantly lies about the smallest things! I should look past it, and just see the good things. But the lying KILLS ME! I am so scared that history will repeat itself, but I just can’t stop myself from thinking like that. Recently, I have been told that I am the glass is half empty kind of girl. I almost died right there! I can’t believe I have turned into the ULTIMATE negative Nancy! I need a new hobby, job or sport. Maybe I will start hitting the gym, because endorphins make you happy and happy people are happy! I just need a breather and to relax, take a chill pill and trust that no one will hurt me. Letting my guard down once and a while won’t hurt me, right?